Chapter 55: Studying

Time is something we can never get back and lately, I’ve felt as if I’ve been wasting a lot of my youth and my future.

I met my wife over 10 years ago and when we first started dating, we had hopes, dreams, plans etc. Most of the things we wanted just never happened and with kids in our lives, we probably won’t do for another 15-20 years.

I’ve talked about it before but for year’s I’ve wanted to write and direct a film. It’s probably not going to be any good, I just want to make one. I took a few steps, wrote a few scripts, bought a decent mic and about 6 months ago bought a camera. But I just never put the effort into actually doing it.

Well, I’m 33 and I’m going to start taking my first real steps into filming an indie movie. I’m taking an online course about scriptwriting, I’ve bought audiobooks to help. I’m giving my self 2 years to save money and film something.

I’ll talk more about what I’m learning and how things are coming along.

Until next time!

Chapter 54: Late Blogtober!

It’s been a while so I figured, hey it’s Blogtober so why not start posting again?

I don’t really remember too much of what I talked about over the last few posts so I’m just going to do a massive update.

So, I finally managed to finish my 40 hours of teacher training for becoming a driving instructor. I’m now at the point of looking for a car and insurance and then I can start teaching which in excited and nervous about.

My son turned 1 and has developed one hell of a cheeky attitude. He loves to steal our seats if we get up, rushing over, laughing and climbing up until he’s sitting where we sat. He also has a thing for butting my wife/his mum? He very rarely bites anyone else, just her.

My daughter is back at school through all this current madness but, she is being safe and careful. Every day I get home she shows me a book slowly filling up with stickers she has earned at school. It’s adorable.

My wife’s fibromyalgia has gotten worse but, the stress at the moment is high for us all. Usually, as soon as I get home, I take the kids so she can rest and work on her crafting business.

That’s the update for now!

Until next time!

Chapter 32: A New Hope…?

Good actual evening!

Back in the old days of 2010, I had decided to create a video game podcast focusing on reviewing and news. At this point in time, I really don’t remember what it was called, but I did a lot of research on creating it, how to edit audio correctly, where to put the episode up so people could find it, etc. I even found a like-minded soul on a forum to co-host with me, things were looking up, I was finally going to create something where people could hear my voice and listen to what I had to say.

Flash forward to the release of the first episode, I get an email from someone who wants to join podcasts. See at the time people were only really recording and uploading them, but this guy, let’s call him Josh, was streaming the recording out to a website (not Twitch). Now, this was a good few years before streaming IRL (In Real Life) was a thing.

I was blown away with the idea, plus of course, having more co-hosts to talk to was a huge bonus to me. And so a new podcast was formed. I was finally able to say what I wanted to and laugh with people who had similar thoughts and ideas. It was fun!

Unfortunately life catches up to us all and in this case, it caught up incredibly fast. We only ended up airing about 4 episodes suddenly everyone was kind of hit with a whirlwind of problems. Hey, it happens and I enjoyed my time on the show and made some friends that I followed throughout the years.

Anyway, yesterday I get a message from Josh (Who I haven’t talked to since 2010) asking me if I was still interested in creating a podcast. Now, I don’t know if anyone reading this has gone back and read any of my posts but, hell yes, please, I want to make a podcast. I knew I was going to accept even if it was just as an audio editor or something, I wanted to be involved. An hour-long phone call later and I was convinced that this is something worth putting my time into.

See back in 2010, Josh put a lot of effort into the show but now… Well, now it has become a passion and a job for him. I believe Kevin Smith (The director & Podcaster) once said “Surround yourself with people that have the same push and drive for creating as you”, well it was something along those lines anyway.

So here I am, nervous but excited that I get to work with someone as talented as him and I get to fill in that desire to create and be heard.

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Chapter 28: Nothing?

Have you ever just realised that you want more from your life? You might take a few minutes and just wonder where are you? what are you doing? where are you going? is this it?

I’ve been thinking about this a lot, especially since hearing about losing my job. Was my plan to just stay in that job until I retire? I have no idea. I have benchmarks that I’m walking towards, like seeing everything my daughter gets up to in life. But what am I planning on doing exactly with my life?

I look back on my life and I know a lot of the time I was an arse hole. People wanted my help and I just couldn’t be bothered, partners wanted my attention but I’d given up caring. I want to be the kind of person that stands up and does something, something that I can be proud of. Something that my daughter and Wife can be proud of. And yet, here I am, standing in the kitchen, procrastinating.

Until next time.