Chapter 28: Nothing?

Have you ever just realised that you want more from your life? You might take a few minutes and just wonder where are you? what are you doing? where are you going? is this it?

I’ve been thinking about this a lot, especially since hearing about losing my job. Was my plan to just stay in that job until I retire? I have no idea. I have benchmarks that I’m walking towards, like seeing everything my daughter gets up to in life. But what am I planning on doing exactly with my life?

I look back on my life and I know a lot of the time I was an arse hole. People wanted my help and I just couldn’t be bothered, partners wanted my attention but I’d given up caring. I want to be the kind of person that stands up and does something, something that I can be proud of. Something that my daughter and Wife can be proud of. And yet, here I am, standing in the kitchen, procrastinating.

Until next time.

Chapter 21: More Work

So, since learning that we are losing our jobs in a few months, we were expecting a meeting telling us exactly what’s going to happen in the coming few months. Today we finally had that meeting and I can’t really tell if it was good or bad.

So being as vague as possible, there’s a lot of work to do and not a lot of time to do it in. Which means bringing in temps or increasing our hours. Now that’s not so bad, temps would mean workers can focus on the jobs that need doing and getting out of the door. But more hours means more money and its only for a few months so maybe more hours isn’t such a bad idea.

Well, it now seems everyone will be working around 11 hours a day, voluntarily of course… I guess at the end of these months it will just mean I have more money to fall back on. It will also mean in the coming weeks I’m going to stop seeing as much of my family as I do. I guess we will see what happens.

Until next time!

Chapter 7: Loss

Today, today I lost my job.

Our warehouse manager had gathered us all together and told us that there was a meeting and no matter what happens we are a team and will face it as a team. Last time he’d said those words there were layoffs. Into the meeting, we all go and very quickly some people I’ve never met before tell us that the warehouse and offices will be closing down in 3 months and moving to abroad.

So, personally, I’ve lived a pretty easy life. I got this job after wasting a year in college and I’ve been with this company for 15 years. Pretty good, lucky really. Now I’m faced with potentially never seeing these people I spend my life with ever again. I have to write a new CV up, which terrifies me and then hope that I can sell myself as someone worthwhile…

I don’t think it’s come across if I’m honest, I’m a pretty timid and shy person, now I have to convince a stranger I’m worth investing in with a job. And it’s not just me, there are my wife and 2 children I have to worry about now. There is a whole lot of internal screaming and panicking going on at the moment.

I’m not completely sure how to end this post, there’s the saying when one for closes another one opens. I suppose I’ll see how things turn out eventually and keep posting throughout all of it.

Until next time!