Time is something we can never get back and lately, I’ve felt as if I’ve been wasting a lot of my youth and my future.
I met my wife over 10 years ago and when we first started dating, we had hopes, dreams, plans etc. Most of the things we wanted just never happened and with kids in our lives, we probably won’t do for another 15-20 years.
I’ve talked about it before but for year’s I’ve wanted to write and direct a film. It’s probably not going to be any good, I just want to make one. I took a few steps, wrote a few scripts, bought a decent mic and about 6 months ago bought a camera. But I just never put the effort into actually doing it.
Well, I’m 33 and I’m going to start taking my first real steps into filming an indie movie. I’m taking an online course about scriptwriting, I’ve bought audiobooks to help. I’m giving my self 2 years to save money and film something.
I’ll talk more about what I’m learning and how things are coming along.
It’s been a while so I figured, hey it’s Blogtober so why not start posting again?
I don’t really remember too much of what I talked about over the last few posts so I’m just going to do a massive update.
So, I finally managed to finish my 40 hours of teacher training for becoming a driving instructor. I’m now at the point of looking for a car and insurance and then I can start teaching which in excited and nervous about.
My son turned 1 and has developed one hell of a cheeky attitude. He loves to steal our seats if we get up, rushing over, laughing and climbing up until he’s sitting where we sat. He also has a thing for butting my wife/his mum? He very rarely bites anyone else, just her.
My daughter is back at school through all this current madness but, she is being safe and careful. Every day I get home she shows me a book slowly filling up with stickers she has earned at school. It’s adorable.
My wife’s fibromyalgia has gotten worse but, the stress at the moment is high for us all. Usually, as soon as I get home, I take the kids so she can rest and work on her crafting business.
First off before I start my story, turns out since I made Chapter 10, I’ve had my chapter numbers wrong. I posted 2 chapter 10s, so in correcting that as it bugs me.
Today was Halloween! In case anyone out there missed it. I got home from picking up sweets/candy only to find out my daughter had fallen asleep. After trying to wake her she just wasn’t having any of it, so like a good parent, we left her there.
Skip an hour (about 6 pm now) and she finally wakes up and we rush around to get her dressed in a Cinderella costume with unicorn flashing shoes, she didn’t want to be anything scary. And then we set off into the night.
Parents and children walking around were incredibly friendly and kept commenting on how cute my daughter was in her costume and how they loved her shoes, which really made her happy and even more excited. To the point where she was opening letterboxes to peer into homes to look for people/candy.
She thoroughly enjoyed herself and felt so proud at gaining a bucket full of sweets, I wish I’d aken a photo of her in her costume for this blog.
I failed at my 2 ADI test. Pretty much it, it sucks.
So, who’s fault was? Mine, I pulled out a junction and didn’t look left. So I can’t blame anyone but myself. What’s the plan now? Well, I have another attempt before I have to wait 2 years before I can take the tests again.
Well, I’ll be honest if I fail again I won’t be taking the tests again in 2 years. I’ll just move on to something else, hopefully directing. But, my confidence has taken a hit. If I can’t even drive correctly what makes me think I can direct a whole movie?
Today, was a bad day and I don’t know how long this slump of a mood will keep me down. Jesus, only one more chance to prove myself, it sucks. There’s also the pressure to provide for my family, my wife has been nothing but supportive but I also know that if i fail I’ve waisted about £2000 in lessons and tests.
I don’t even know how to end this post thanks to not being in the right frame of mind. I guess, wish me luck on the next and last attempt?