The End of a Year

A year ago a YouTube channel posted its first video called Unus Annus. The purpose of the channel was to upload a video every day for a year and then delete the channel (hence the name Unus Annus, Latin for One Year).

Now that year has passed and the creators of the channel Markiplier (Mark) and Crankplaysgames (Ethan) have done what they set out to do. They uploaded over 365 videos to the channel and on the 13th-14th of November 2020 they did a 12 hour livestream with Marks partner Amy, and at the end of it, when the inevitable clock hit 00:00:00 they deleted the channel.

Each video was a mini-adventure, from running an assault course, making their own self deprivation tank, building a dog house, right up to trying out a pee sauna. It was this slice of weird happiness for the last year knowing these 3 people were bringing happiness to millions of viewers.

And now? Well, it’s all over and it’s… just difficult knowing that it’s over. Yes, they are still around making content but, for this past year, through all these awe full times, there was an Unus Annus video waiting to be watched everyday.

So, the main point of the channel was that we all have limited time, every second counts and the clock will eventually run out. Enjoy every moment you can while it lasts.

The channel inspired me to start jogging, to start intermittent fasting, to spend more time with my family and hope that my kids remember these years as fun.

With all this in mind, they’ve inspired me to start a Vlog, which I’m currently filming today. I’m starting a YouTube channel with a friend of more than 10 years. They’ve motivated me to start creating content and not waste the precious time I have.

My wife also, after seeing how sad I was yesterday, woke me up to some presents.

I hope some day to inspire my kids to go do something fun and amazing! To live their lives to the fullest and be happy.

Memento Mori

Chapter 49: Another Failure

I failed at my 2 ADI test. Pretty much it, it sucks.

So, who’s fault was? Mine, I pulled out a junction and didn’t look left. So I can’t blame anyone but myself. What’s the plan now? Well, I have another attempt before I have to wait 2 years before I can take the tests again.

Well, I’ll be honest if I fail again I won’t be taking the tests again in 2 years. I’ll just move on to something else, hopefully directing. But, my confidence has taken a hit. If I can’t even drive correctly what makes me think I can direct a whole movie?

Today, was a bad day and I don’t know how long this slump of a mood will keep me down. Jesus, only one more chance to prove myself, it sucks. There’s also the pressure to provide for my family, my wife has been nothing but supportive but I also know that if i fail I’ve waisted about £2000 in lessons and tests.

I don’t even know how to end this post thanks to not being in the right frame of mind. I guess, wish me luck on the next and last attempt?

Chapter 45: Playtime

How do you spend your time with your kids? There are a lot of things you can do to entertain them… Oh boy, do kids need to be entertained constantly. So what’s a good way to keep them happy?

My daughter loves to sing, dance, jump, scream and laugh as loud as possible. So my wife often sings nursery rhymes with her or we play music to see her dance and laugh.

One of my favourite things to do with her is play in her room, she has this large canopy over her bed that makes it look like a house. So we tend to play shops or pretend it’s a castle and she is a princess.

My daughter also loves old black and white movies so every Friday night she cuddles into bed with us and watching them.

My son? Well his favourite game at the moment is rocking him back and forth while we sing row row row your boat. Huge grins all around!

Chapter 44: I forgot

I am, socially awkward. Ever since I was around 9 years old when I was bullied in school. That being said when I make/gain close friends, I’m incredibly close to them, i become waaaaay more open than i usually am. To the point that my wife has questioned my sexuality on the odd occasion and sometimes those friends question it too.

Anyway, where I used to work i had a friend there that I was/still am close to. But of course with changing jobs that comfort? At work vanished. I figured today is try to open up more and joke around with someone I work with. It really didn’t go well.

I came away from the conversation annoyed, pissed off and just remembering why I don’t particularly like my job. The people are just, children? There’s a lot of talking behind each other back. I even walked in on two people talking about me and when I confronted them they sputtered their way through attempting to change what they said.

If anything today has taught/reinforced that no one there really cares and that I just need to work harder at changing careers, spend more time on the relationships I care about and move away from toxic people.