Have you ever just realised that you want more from your life? You might take a few minutes and just wonder where are you? what are you doing? where are you going? is this it?

I’ve been thinking about this a lot, especially since hearing about losing my job. Was my plan to just stay in that job until I retire? I have no idea. I have benchmarks that I’m walking towards, like seeing everything my daughter gets up to in life. But what am I planning on doing exactly with my life?

I look back on my life and I know a lot of the time I was an arse hole. People wanted my help and I just couldn’t be bothered, partners wanted my attention but I’d given up caring. I want to be the kind of person that stands up and does something, something that I can be proud of. Something that my daughter and Wife can be proud of. And yet, here I am, standing in the kitchen, procrastinating.

Until next time.